Tuesday, June 21, 2005

-i live my life the way i want it to be..-

we'll talk about friendships today.. hmm.. saw phebs saying this.. that friendships are so fragile..

Is it really as fragile as what it seems? or is it a matter of the trust we breach or so much so that we find new friends that "overlap" our old ones? u know.. i have no problem with bear hanging out with them, in fact i thought we as a family of God.. we gonna be best of friends.. u know.. the kind that even in silence, u know what she is thinking. we cry, laugh and do all things together.. but itz not so simple. friendship is not just about that.

itz about this certain love and care we have for each other. that though we may not be there.. though we meet like once a week, the bond is still there. the things we do for each other. bear scolds me.. she rebukes me sometimes.. there are times when i got into my childish mood and ignore her.. but deep down within me.. i know that she's right. and sometimes she does things that really hurt me a lot.. but i know itz for my own good.. i depend a lot on her but i know we got our own lives. i was devastated when we multiplied and both of us went to different cells.. i though things will change but it din. thank god for a best friend like her. i love BELINDA LIM HUI XIN !!

We all live a long life, and we meet countless kinds of people, the ones we like, the ones we enjoy playing sports with , and the ones we simply want to kill. And this process goes on , and on without stopping. wad are ur views on friendships? Is it just simply keeping in contact and being funny all the time and lending a shoulder when they need help? Maybe. But they way i see it, theres more. It's like that of a relationship. You have to click, i have a thousand and one people that are there for me when i need them. but its not just that. and bear just have that x factor.

The real test of friendship is: can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?

So everyone wants to be the popular one. Everyone wants to be the centre of attention. " I want everyone to love me and i want everyone to hate whoever i hate." These are the things that stir them on to be your "best friends" ever! They go out with you, they laugh with you and then when you turn your back they say, " what a showoff, or, what an ugly outfit, or worst, boy doesn't he/she look like me?" I bet everyone does that. Hey dont be feeling guilty, no ones perfect. Bear's not the perfect friend.. i used to hate her.. but God sure has a knack for bringing two totally different human beings together.. and friendship blossomed between us. i used to be a real hypocrite. u know. doing wad's mentioned on top. but i realised sth.. seriously.. wad goes around comes around. in the end, i got it all back. friends deserted me.. they despise me. but hey.. guess what? bear is there.. instead of doing waht others did, she choose to stay in my life. like wad people says. a true friend is one who walks in when others walk out. she helped me change. and slowly but steadily.. i changed to be who i m now. i can boldly say now that though i may not be perfect, but i have someone above me who is. He helped me thru my darkest moments. He changed me with His powers.

before u say things like sandy is crazy or wad. think about it.. have u ever been liddat before? but someone chooses to stay on and help u? u feel lost and rejected. but she or he makes u feel whole again?. yes. ive changed. dun ask me how.. remind me to ask my Father up in heaven when i get up there later in life..

me and bear, we have our ups and downs.. but thru it all.. we came put to be the best of friends. so if u ask me.. are friendships fragile? i would say yes.. this will not be wad it seems today if me or bear decides to give up on the other party and leave. no. cherish the friendships u have cultivated. choose to stand by them when things happen. i rather have bear one friend than a thousand others who take me for granted.

Friendships speak a deep language. And thats not saying. If you get me, friends are those that know you inside out and help when you are in need not pretend nothing has happened just to save your face. Friends do things without you saying what you want. Friends are there, when you need it. The bottom line is this,

Life is partly what we make it, and partly what is made by the friends whom we choose


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 21:18|

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