Saturday, June 18, 2005
-singing or sacrifice-
tralala.. itz a new blog again.. cant believe that i actually forgot my username.. hur hur.. anyways.. its been a total new experience for me.. going for emerge, rushing to schools den back to church for the conference again.. it had taken a toll on me.. and i often go for the services with a heart that is still not fully for Him.. while worshipping.. i will think of stuff like " goodness.. have i finished my homework?", "what time does my class starts tomorrow?" i dunno.. things began to distract me from what's the original purpose.. i totally forgot that hey, sandy... worship is a sacrifice.. whereby there's nothing on your mind except the Lord.. and i often take his presence for granted.. thinking that.. ah.. it will come again. but what if i were to die the next moment? and when i go up to heaven and stand at the gates of heaven.. and God says sth like " i do not know you, get away from me.." that's will definitely be the worst thing that can ever happen to a person..
the true leader serves. serves people. serves their best interest.And in doing so, will not always be popular, may not always impress.But because true leaders are motivated by a loving concern,rather than a desire for personal glory,they're willing to pay the price.- Eugene B. Habecker serving people.. i really had a hard time with my group members.. they r so not cooperating with me.. so many times, i just fell like throwing in the white towel and give up totally. den i'll thought about it.. im accountable for these people.. and if im not gonna be faithful over little.. how den i expect God to give me much? how can i expect them to come to me when the only thing i do is to scold them and correct them? that's not helping them but destroying them without me myself realising.. i serve them because i love them. i love my family of God.. and how many times have i not been insulted by my frenz? y do all this? dun go church one day cannot meh? hey.. people.. u might be reading this, but yeah.. i wanta let u know. that i love u guys.. but i love God more. one day in His presence is better than a thousand days else where... i'll do anything and everything to just soak in His presence.. i love singing to Him.. worshipping Him.. itz not just a simple singalong session.. but itz sth so sacred.. and i made a promise.. that God will come down to n163 because of me.. i pulled down His presence.. i made a effort to sing extra loud.. i made an effort to share my visions and dreams whenever possible.. but it just dun seem right.. it seems as if the cell is run by only a few people.. the group is not working together.. we seem as if we're living individual lives for God.. but that's not the way.. we're suppose to stand together as one.. worship God as one. praise God as one. come to Him with prayers as one. but it dun seems to be happening that way.. true.. we all love God.. but somehow, everything just seems so wrong.. God.. give me a answer.. we scream change me !! we cried.. we laughed.. we hugged.. we went for emerge.. but we submerged. we need a breakthrough.. we have to pull down the presence of God once again.. we have to keep in mind that praise and worship is not just a time of singalong session anymore. itz a sacrifice. my hands hurt when i clap, that's because i have to clap extra loud cuz others r not. my voice rang high above all.. that's not because im loud. itz because no one is singing. remember wad sister py says? do we want Jesus to walk past one day and stay because He sense the love we have for Him? or do we want Him to walk past without evening noticing us? i dunno bout u.. but i want Him to stay. in fact, i want grab hold of His hands and not let go.. never let go of Him..
| s a n d y wrote this down @ 11:12|
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