Wednesday, June 22, 2005

-wishful thinking on my part..-

hmm.. something's happening in the cell.. and though its not gonna affect me. im kinda sad about it.. she's leaving.. she's always been there for me.. always there to help me through.. when i get scolded, shw as there.. i admit we werent as good as how she and bear or joyve will be.. but.. i still love her with all my heart.. i care for her silently.. how i long for a freidnship just like she has with joyce and bear.. sigh.. all good things have to come to an end ..but yeah.. i guess over at the new cell group, she's gonna grow more and help out more. like the previous entry. friendship is not just about being together.. crapping and stuff.. its the bond. yeah.. i'll miss you girl.. lots

hmm.. love. what izzit all about? or rather what is it really about? i dunno.. but love's not just about getting into a relationship.. possessing each other.. no. its not even the making out.. the cuddling.. and stuff. some when in a relationship will tend to do what the other party like and not what they themselves like. its like " oh.. i'll do whatever u want me to do.. because i wanta make you happy" -- its not love, its just u not being able to have a stand for urself.

some says.. "i love him cause he's so good to me.. he treat me so well.. i'll feel bad if i dun accept him" -- that's not love, its just pity.

teenagers nowadays are taking relationship so lightly. its love one day and hate another. its not as if im saying dun love.. but arent it better to not be hurt by anyone than by so many people? we tend to take it so lightly. ive broke many hearts before. and ive never tried putting myself in their shoes. i guess it must have been shit for them. im sorry

i dunno.. love is complicated la. i love you is so easy to say.. but so difficult to live with.. but if u think its the right person, grab hold of him. its alright if he dont return the feelings. its okays even if its just wishful thinking on your part. at least u tried and told him how u really feel. u dun wanta be keeping this from him and regret it later in life.

Corrine May, entitled "Everything in Its Time" :

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer, To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Keep whats yours by your side and let what does not belong to you go. For the right star will come by and shine so that you could see and that melodies will play in your heart so that you could hear the most beautiful voice


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 23:45|

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