Monday, July 18, 2005

-almost..-

"Helena"

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

had eals today. i screwed it all up. serious. haha. bah. was talking to daniel. and lol. its funny that i missed him. even when he often pissed the crap outta me. he's shit la. haha. and the times he comes talk to me when he is in a good mood. he's says he's unique. i say he's just weird.

its funny how u say one thing and do another. listening to that song that he sent me, memories just came flooding into my mind. like i tried to block everything out. but its seems impossible. the very little time we had. dosent it mean anything to him? and seeing the both of you so close together. it just makes everything worse. alot more. but heck. who cares. i dun. maybe i do. i dunno. i wun cry

overnight prayer meeting was awesome. presence of God so strong that ya, everyone was kneeling down and stuff. cell was wonderful. service was great. as i held up my pledge card, tears came rolling down. its really my precious. my 'benjamin'.

for the next six months, i wun be able to watch movies, eat good food or buy new stuff. but i know its worth it all. like a seed planted, u will always get results. though we sow in tears we will reap in joy.

and man, im uber proud of my children church kids. the way they brought their piggy banks and their money to give to the house of god. and when we ask them why they want to give. they replied with a innocent but ever true reply. "i want god to be happy"

i want god to be happy with me too. -beams- a hundred percent for god. ever true to him.


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 16:12|

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