Thursday, July 14, 2005

-no more what ifs.. its over-

Draw this darkness out like poison
Stab, retrieve, again decline
Help me drive the dagger deeper
Trace with me explicit line
Take this blade,
a test of faith,
And strike me deep and true
I put all my trust in you


relationships,
I mean any kind of relationship,
they are hard to maintain.
hard to predict what's next.

cause people,
they are so two-faced.
saying one thing on Monday, and doing the total opposite on Tuesday.
making false accusations at you.
and then apologise straight after that.
it gets me down.

and,
I don't think I want any of those. anymore.

This is where I say I've had enough,
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises.
And I don't believe im getting any better.
Any better..

You're killing everything in me

nothing beats reading the God's Word.
I always thought I can handle my own problems,
I want others to think that I have everything under control,
I don't want to share the burden with anyone else just cause I feel that its just so unfair.
and often, it ended up getting people more worried and everything.

im dumb, really dumb.

anyway, I still refuse to share.

Growing through temptation and defeating them.

I fight back the feeling, I argue with what's within me.
and its bad, trust me, cause in the end, I got messed up I don't know what's right, what's lies.

you see how dumb and stubborn we all can be at times?

but then again. God is always there. ive learn one thing over the years. that we dun run away from the problem. instead we have to face it. and trust me.. God is always there to guide and help us. no. me.

bah. im having gastric pain and all. not speaking sense. but i love God. period. and im not gonna spend my time crying, brooding over that matter. time will heal wounds. =)

till then


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 21:21|

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