Saturday, April 19, 2008

-frustrated.-

you know, i have every reason to be like the above picture

it was a horrible day yesterday.
i.blew.forty.bucks.on.cabs.alone.yesterday.


yes, you heard me right. forty bucks.
in fact, my last forty bucks
from Concourse to Braddell to Bishan back to Braddell and back to Concourse again

to cut a long story short,
it was plainly just miscommunication and sillyness on my part.

supposed to leave work at 12, but in the end, i had to stay till 5.
cabbed home during lunch hour to take my stuff, only to realise that i left my keys back at home. cabbed to look for bug yee to get keys from her, then back home again and back to office.

an office which was deserted because everyone had left early for our company's dinner and dance, which i was supposed to do so too if not for this colleague of mine.

if i can sum my day up with just a word, it will be "horrendous"

anyway, took a bus down to Tamp for CG
i dont know if you had ever felt like this before.
but i was sitting alone at the front of the bus, and you know everytime before you cry,
there seems to be a stone stuck at your throat and no matter how hard you try to swallow, it just wouldnt go down ?
and no matter how many times i repeat jia yous, sandy, you can do it, aza aza fighting, im a fighter to myself, the tears just kept threatening to fall.

i feel like a bottle of gas, ready to pop anytime.
the accumulated stress, pressure, lack of sleep, tiredness were definitely taking a toil on me.

but God is good !
and i believe all things work together for the good of God.

He din say a lot to me during the bus journey, in fact, He din speak at all.

but during worship in CG,
all i heard was just..
"I know"


and thats all i need.




for every one reason the world gives you to frown,
God gives you ten reasons to smile.




i am a fighter ! (:


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 23:19|

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