Saturday, January 03, 2009

-a new year; a new start-

i cant believe it's 2009 already !
was just filling up the alteration slip for a customer today when i wrote 2008
pause, think, laughed at myself, cancel and wrote 2009 instead

had our leaders retreat over at Aranda Country Club over the new year
it was awesome counting down and basically just hanging out with them
it was definitely nerve wrecking as we have to come up with not 1, not 2 but 4 games within a short span of time
but all's good
glad that everyone enjoyed it
pictures will be up soon, i promise

it was especially tear jerking for me during the first night, the appreciation night whereby we sang the friendship song
and im really very glad that i stayed. despite all the things that i went through, i held on and refused to let go
and as i sat there with my left arm across kai lin and right arm draped over the shoulders of del
i found love and comfort
and i cant say enough how much i adore this life im living now
though not perfect, sometimes even causing me to wake up to wet pillows and swollen eyes but fulfilling. no. strike that. very fulfilling
seeing the lives of many being touched
the love of God enveloping them

was just browsing through my archives and i found this
something i wrote in 2006 when i first left children church ministry and went over to W351


the intensifying feeling of fear
my heart's pounding so fast, can You hear?
i made a decision to step out in faith
keeping in mind there are hundreds to save

im all alone in this maze of life
no one can phantom what's behind those eyes
till His hands reached out, and touched the heart that's broken
i wanted to bring love, like a walking slogan

i tried my best, but still i fall
with a contrite spirit, His name i call
"dont leave me, Father", dont ever let me go
i cried out in pain, in weaknesses and cold

and as i pray, i saw a vision
of me serving Him, with love and passion
how i responded to His call
sacrificed and gave Him my all

there is He standing
am i dreaming or what ?
and the angels are cheering
though i dragged His name through mud

i love You, Father
more than anything in this world
I love you, My daughter
of this I am very sure



with this, i leave you with a acronym that kept me there
HCILJLYTM ?


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 23:48|

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