Monday, August 08, 2005

-one more chance-

i hate it. when u did that to me.
u pushed and pulled me away.
say stuff that u shouldn't

but still i keep that smile on my face.
continue to treat it as if nothing had ever happened.
thanks but i think i need none of that. i can do without it

and yes. whats with me and him being together?
you're telling me he has got zero freedom to know other girls?
and im wrong to even talk to him? now.
thats funny. -tickles-

i am just being who i m. yes. i may be small but im no pushover.
i dun hate you. no. i dun. i just. wanta clarify things.
sometimes, keeping quiet dosent mean im dumb or i dunno anything.
it dosent mean im not angry or upset.
its just that i dun wanta blow up things. i want others to be happy. =)

so yeah. chickens. i know u girls care a lot. i dun want u girls to worry too.
so yeah. like i always say
just smile it all away. -beams-
its simple yet practical. try it.

people may not understand. people may laugh at you instead of with you
but i know. somewhere up there.
my big daddy is watching. he's looking at me

fop was fab !
one thing that strucked me the most is a statement that rev colin dye said during the second night

he said.
i may be the only bible that people get to read
i may be the only "jesus" people get to see
it dosent just lies in my words or actions.
but my character.

and its so true
people may be all holy and everything on the outside.
but when the doors are closed. when no one is around.
what will u be like?
will u still keep that fake look on ur face? will u still smile as if everything's alright?
are there no more skeletons hiding in the closet?
its not just about all talking and no doing.
ive seen many things during fop.

people sitting when pastor is praying.
people jumping real high during praise
lifting up of hands during worship
are these for real?
ive learned over the years that just excitement alone will bring u no where
its not just being all hyped up and everything.
but doing every single thing for god.
lifting up every single thing to him
the pain
the sadness
the excitement
the burdens
the problems

lift it all up to him
and i believe
everything will be alright =)


| s a n d y wrote this down @ 21:38|

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