Friday, December 07, 2007
-camp breakaway !!!-
for most of the campers, camp breakaway started on monday
but for some of us, it started on friday night itself
i really thank God for giving me the chance to be part of the planning team
all the sleepless nights, the eyes stuck onto my laptop screen doing some last min preparations, the waiting for the campers to sleep before we can strike, the buying of the different sabos items.. was something that ive never done before
i've always been a camper for the past two camps, not even a team leader, mind you. just a ordinary member going for an extraordinary camp.
and to be honest, i wasnt exactly expecting myself to be part of it after everything that happened
but it was great, no, strike that. it was AWESOME !
i wasnt around to listen to the preaching on the first night because i was busy preparing for the night game =P
but the moment i stepped into the room, i could feel the very strong presence of God coming in waves and waves that's never ending.
was contemplating about stepping forward to be prayed for since i dont even know what was it about, but i decided to do so.
and as i was standing right in front, i sensed the Lord saying, this is it. you wanted it, now Im gonna give it to you
give what, i do not know. but what i do know is that i need a touch from God, i am very very desperate for Him
the moment Jerb laid hands on me, i fell and this burning sensation came upon me
and it brought back memories of me back in my room, praying and asking God for something, anything to show me that He is there.
you know, i used to get very upset and jealous when people come up to me and rave about how tangible God's presence is and all, of how when they fall under the power, they felt warm and all
because i cant seem to feel it at all
yes, i'll fall and yes, i know that His presence is here
but i want so much more than that
and that have been my prayer for the past one year
that i am not satisfied with whatever i'm getting, but i want more of God
the first time i felt the burning sensation was when Jerb prayed for me during one of the CG meetings in W351, the second time i felt it was during our first Holy Ghost meeting and for months, i just couldnt have a breakthrough in the spiritual realm.
you know how sometimes, when you've gotten something, you tend to relax and in a way, take it for granted. that's what i did and it certainly din feel good. like there's a missing piece to this jigsaw puzzle and you just couldnt find it back no matter how hard you try.
and so, as i stood there right in front, waiting to be prayed for, i whispered a silent prayer to God, telling Him how much i miss Him, and He reminding me of when i used to spend hours in my room, playing my G Em C D and telling God that i will not leave until He comes, and BAM, i fell. and there and then, i felt the burning sensation upon me once again.
arent you glad that God always gives you a second, a third, and so forth chance? i am.
the finale was fantastic as well, there i was sitting right in front of Jerb as she preaches, and many a time, tears were threatening to fall.
the example of a lightstick will always stay with me.
that unless you are broken, your light will not shine through and neither can you do many things.
seeing the 100 over of us running and jumping to the last praise song, i am really really glad to be part of the wonderful family. can i tell you, that many times, i really want to give up, to throw in the white towel and quit, but i really thank God for placing friends around me who never fails to believe in me and encourage or disciple me whenever needed. for Jerb, ting, steph, shing, boss, bird, lian, KL, del, toutou.. many many more years of working together ! (:
and i always believe, promotion comes from God.
its not about getting approval from man, or doing things that people like.
but its about pleasing the most important person up there, my God is all that matters.
| s a n d y wrote this down @ 22:25|
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